Feelings and Lies

Last week was Spiritual Emphasis Week at school. It was awesome to come into chapel each day with my feelings all geared up. One day, I felt like crying because God is so good and I am so not. Another day I felt nervous, another excited beyond belief.

On the last day, I walked in feeling nothing. I journaled about the sudden lack of feelings, "Lord, did you leave? I don't feel You, like I did the other day." When we finished worship a simple invitation was given. God had not answered my question, so I had no idea what to expect. Suddenly, I was surrounded by eleven middle schoolers. Two girls were weeping. They both prayed the most amazing prayers of salvation I've ever heard. I was blown away. I was not the only one surrounded by students. Every available adult was praying with kids and God was not only present but greatly working.

Later on I went to the question I had asked, and I believe I stumbled onto a great big lie of our generation. If what I feel makes things real, then conversely if I don't feel it, it must not be real. I thought God had left that day because I didn't feel Him, and I was grossly mistaken (and I'm not even a strong feeler). So I wonder, how many Christians are not experiencing the life that is truly life that Jesus longs to give because they don't feel Him. Oh how sad....

I would like to say to all who have struggled because they don't feel God....God's presence, power, life, goodness are not dependent on our feelings. He is God even if we never feel Him. He is real.