Mirror

So the full length mirror I have propped up in my closet was noticed to be covered in dust. When I cleaned it yesterday, I also noticed that I have it propped like a foot from the wall. So I moved it back. What happened next was a grave disappointment, for I stood up and looked at my image in the mirror. While a more accurate portrayal of myself, it was not nearly as flattering as the image that had been there a few minutes ago.

Spiritually something similar happened. See I felt led to pray for some people. It was one of those fire in my belly kind of prayer times. I was fighting and interceding and really trying to follow God's direction and leading. So I prayed specifics, one in particular that was time-sensitive. Well, the time came and went for the specific to be answered and nothing. I was disappointed. I had felt God leading me to pray those specifics and He didn't answer them.

I realized that I often distort the image of my Creator into something more appealing. I pull the mirror out a foot and rejoice over lost weight. However, the truth is that "now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known." See, God requires obedience now. God is not bound by my expectations or my prayers. Sometimes, He just wants me to pray... not so that He will answer my specifics in my way, but so that I will obey Him no matter what. A wise pastor said he taught his children to obey now and ask questions later. Obedience must always be first. So it is time to put the mirror back into its place, not the place that is more palatable yet deceptive. God I trust you with the specifics. You gave them to me to pray, You will answer as You see fit. And I can't wait till I will know and be known fully.