disappointment

Today I am struggling with disappointment. It's nothing major. Simply something I hoped to happened, didn't. So I wonder where is God in disappointment. Then I think, well He must be there for throughout Scripture people were disappointed. In fact, God seems to initiate it. Leah was disappointed she didn't have her husband's love, Rachel she didn't have her husband's children. Job was disappointed that in his greatest pain God was so long silent. Samuel was disappointed that Israel wanted a king like the other nations. I'm sure Shadrack, Meshach and Abednego were disappointed when they take their stand, don't bow down, and hear the news they are still getting thrown in the fiery furnace. And then the greatest disappointment of all... the disciples. The man they had dedicated the last three years of their lives, the One they thought would change everything, the One they loved, died. For three days, He left them the most disappointed anyone could ever be. All their hopes were shattered, all their dreams destroyed.

In light of all these, my tee-tiny disappoint today seems like nothing. Yet I feel it, I don't want to diminish it, but I do wonder what God wants me to do with it? Here is how the Lord answered me.... Call to me, Come to me, throw your burden on me. Your disappointment, no matter what size, has a purpose. It is a catalyst to intimacy. I want to be what you put your hope in. I might restore your hope in what disappointed you, I might not. But your disappointment, bring to me, now. Let's grieve it together.

PS. Rachel got her kids, Leah never got her love (though she was later satisfied). Job got his answer. Samuel got God's reassurance that they hadn't rejected him but God. Rack, Shack and Benny got delivered. And the disciples, well they got to see the risen Lord! God can restore what was lost.