TV Tears

I am watching a TV show with tears running down my face. It is a mindless drama, yet it hit me hard today. The storyline: a cabby strapped for cash gets killed, the investigation leads the cops to the knowledge that he had built a radioactive bomb. All the cops are instructed to keep the information to themselves, and yet they are all trying to convince their families to leave town. It is at this point that I found my heart stricken. What if it were my town with a missing bomb? What if I knew, and I couldn't tell my husband? I would find a reason for him to go to his parents house in PA. I would want him to be safe. The tears came as I realized that I would be devastated if anything happened to my husband.

What a gift God gives us. He gives us the ability to love another, to spend everyday with them. He gives us the opportunity to know and be known. To love someone, means great happiness and fulfillment. However, it also means there is the greatest opportunity to experience pain. Today, I experienced pain at the mere thought of losing my husband. Thank God it was just a thought and not a reality.

I realize this is the love of God for his people. He experiences great joy and fulfillment when his people call on him and love him in return. But oh the pain he must feel all the time! He experiences great pain when he looses his people, when they experience pain and death. His pain then is exacerbated when they also reject him, walk away from him, hate him and speak against him.